Let me tell you about what I call my Phantom Period…
I’ve been on the contraceptive pill since I was 17, so almost 20 years. I’ve been on a few different pills over the years and its never let me down.
About 3 years ago I switched my pill to Cerazette, a progestogen-only pill. Cerazette works by thickening the mucus in the cervix, which stops sperm reaching an egg.
It also stopped my periods.
When I changed my contraceptive pill due to migraines, I had no idea that I wouldn’t bleed again. It wasn’t mentioned to me when my doctor discussed the pill with me. When I brought it up at my next appointment he assured me it was a common side effect and would do me no harm.
So, I don’t have periods anymore. Nothing. Zip. Not even a little spotting. And you’d probably think it’s great and to be fair, for the most part it is! But it’s a surreal experience to have cramps but no blood. I call it my Phantom Period. It’s medical title is amenorrhoea.
This lack of bleeding hasn’t stopped me from being period positive. I donate time, money and products to charities that provide menstrual products to the homeless and those on low income. I will happily discuss periods with everyone and anyone. But I’ll be honest with you, there are some products that give me the heebie jeebies!
I’m a pad woman, when I needed them, and will always champion these over tampons or moon cups. No shade on those who do use tampons etc more power to ya. I’ve just never got on with internal products.
I also think it’s important that most brands take note of the exclusionary language they use when selling their products. And those unnecessary products designed to ‘clean your intimate feminine area’ I mean, c’mon!
Like I said I still get cramps and I still feel a little delicate or ready to burn the world to the ground during my Phantom Period.
Is there anything I miss about my period?
Honestly the only thing I miss, and this a little irrational but if a friend starts talking about what a horrible period they’re having, I sometimes have a feeling of missing out.
Obviously, after having periods since the age of 12, I can sympathise with my friends but I’m sometimes I’m very aware of a disconnect. I’m still working through what it is I’m feeling when this happens. I don’t for one second feel any less of a woman, so what the hell is this feeling all about?!
So that’s my Phantom Period. Anyone out there experience the same feeling of not being able to commiserate in quite the same way because you’re not experiencing it the same way anymore?
Thanks for reading!
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