What to Expect from visiting a Breast Clinic Part One

Hello my fellow Badasses!

I wrote this post at the beginning of September and October was Breast Cancer Awareness month, which tied in nicely with what I wanted to talk about.

Life got in the way and so I’m sharing this now. Spoiler Alert – I’m ok.

This the first part of the story.

Today I had my first appointment and my first experience of a Breast Clinic.

To give you a little background I had been feeling pain in my breasts that was more than the usual pain you might have before or during your period. And uncomfortable as it was, I ignored it. Not very Badass of me I know but I convinced myself it was period related.

Problem is because my contraceptive pill has stopped my periods all together. I have no idea when I’m having what I like to call ‘my phantom period’. So it’s hard to say if the pain was connected to my cycle.

I became a bit concerned about how uncomfortable my breasts felt when I was in bed. I gave myself an exam and while I didn’t find a lump as such my breasts felt lumpy in places. So I made an appointment to see my doctor.

I’ll admit that I became good friends with Google. I must have read every website detailing all the symptoms and probabilities of developing breast cancer. Just dealing with the pain was worrying enough but I really did feel a bit overwhelmed, mostly because I couldn’t find much information on what I should expect from an appointment with a Breast Clinic. I didn’t really know what to expect other than a physical exam.

When I arrived for my appointment I had to fill in a form with my medical history and some family health history – which is its own nightmare for me. My Mum had some serious health problems but she was from a generation where you didn’t discuss that sort of thing. Until earlier this year I knew absolutely nothing about my birth mothers health. (We are estranged, she didn’t raise me).

But earlier this year I found out through a family member that my birth mother was recovering from breast cancer. So as I’m sure you can imagine, I was now hyper aware.

Anyway, after filling in a form (it’s a good idea to make a note of any medications you’re taking so you’re not put on the spot – brain fog is real!) I met the specialist.

The doctor was a man, which I don’t have a problem with but you can ask to see a woman. There was a nurse in the room with us who is a woman so if I’d felt uncomfortable she was there. They are both friendly and that helped put me at ease.

He asked me a few more questions regarding family health history and then I had a short physical exam to check for lumps. He also checked the glands in my armpits, which were just as tender as my breasts. I was surprised at how sore they were, I hadn’t noticed any pain there until they examined me.

Because my breasts were so tender that he decided I shouldn’t have a mammogram at the time. I didn’t know that was an option!

I now have to wait for an appointment by which time perhaps my breasts won’t be so sore. I was told to take painkillers before the mammogram and was assured that if the mammogram was too uncomfortable or painful they could do an ultrasound. I also didn’t know about that before hand.

The specialist wasn’t overly concerned which was a bit of a relief and he thinks my back and neck problems might be playing a role in the pain.

I have a tendency to rush through doctor and hospital appointments. Which means I often forget to ask questions or mention symptoms etc

All in all the appointment wasn’t bad but it did feel a bit rushed. I’m sharing my experience because there’s really not a lot of information out there in terms of what to expect.

I’ll post part two soon!

Moxie McMurder


Mmmm, Moonlight Melts

When I find something good, I want to share it with you and today I’d like to give a shout out to Moonlight Melts.

I’ve known about Moonlight Melts for a while now and I’ve been meaning to order some of their wax melts – their scents always sound amazing. Seriously, go take a look… there are lots to choose from.

Cut to yesterday when they announced their new Autumn Collection which happened to include your favourite beverage and mine Pumpkin Spice Latte! So obviously I had to try it out.

I ordered one set of PSL and one called Autumn Woods which has notes of pine,cedarwood and eucalyptus. It smells fantastic although I haven’t melted it yet.

I can happily say that the Pumpkin Spiced Latte melts do not disappoint! Gorgeous nutmeg, sugar and cream it’s all there. They smell good enough to eat!

Forgive my chipped nails!

The PSL melts themselves are really cute there are tiny flecks of gold glitter in them which dance around catching the light. The melts come in a pack of 3 for £1.75. I’ll definitely be getting these again.

You can get 20% off your next order if you share pictures of the melts you order!

My New Obsession

You know when you see something that you think sounds too good? I kept seeing adverts for the Wish App and I thought yeah the clothes look OK but it’s all probably knock offs and undersized etc

Well, out of idle curiosity I decided to download the app and it turns out it’s actually really awesome!

I’ve ordered clothes, jewellery, a super cute mini skull planter,plant seeds and a few other bits and pieces and so far I’m really impressed.

I particularly like the point system. You get points when you order something and you get more points if you review and photograph your purchase. Those points are then used to give you discounts.

I’ve wanted this t-shirt for ages and while the print is a little faded, I’m really happy with it.

It’s definitely worth downloading the app so you can investigate the bargains for yourself. The only downside so far is that so many items come from overseas so can sometimes take 2-3 weeks to arrive.

Cute ouija pin I got for free

I’ve also had a coupleof refunds and I’m impressed with how quickly they refunded me and how easy it was to request.

Overall I’m quite impressed with the app and I’m constantly surprised atmosphere the variety of items!

Cute necklace I bought for my sister in law

Happy shopping!

Moxie McMurder

Win a set of Enamel Pins from the Old English Company!


Win a set of enamel pins from the Old English Company.

How would you like to win a set of these Badass pins?

The Old English Company are a stationery and giftware brand who create beautiful, hand-lettered products including mugs, pins and more. First established in London, The Old English Company are now located in Stamford, Lincolnshire.

You can browse the Old English Company enamel pin collection here, they’ve got some great designs and they don’t just do pins. Stationery fans take note! There’s something for everyone, so if you’re looking to buy a gift for someone or just to treat yo’self take a look at the website.

Click here to enter the competition!

You’re got until the 30th of May to enter, so good luck!


Essence + Alchemy Review and Interview!


As you may or may not know, I have a serious candle addiction. It’s an addiction I have no interest in curing. So, as a scented candle enthusiast I am thrilled to be able to tell you about Essence + Alchemy.

Essence + Alchemy candles are 100% natural, made with clean burning sustainable rapeseed wax and highly scented essential oils. Essence + Alchemy are GMO and toxin free, earth friendly, cruelty free and vegan.

I was sent the Essence + Alchemy Aether Candle and I’m in love with it!

The Aether candle is a blend of peppermint, rosemary and lemon essential oils with a hint of sage and juniper. I was promised an uplifting and energising scent and that’s exactly what I got!

First of all let me say I love the cute hand blown beakers the candles come in. A+E founder Lesley has a degree in enviromental science and considers herself a ‘natural scent alchemist’ – I love that! I think the beakers are quite elegant and the whole aesthetic of the brand is right up my street. It’s witchy chic!

The Aether Candle has a bold scent that’s perfect for an energising boost during the day or at night to relax and unwind. The wooden wick crackles like a small bonfire which is really soothing to listen to. Wooden wicks can be tricky but once it finds its way it gives off  a decent amound of light and unlike some other wooden wicks it doesn’t break off in bits of its own accord as it burns. It really is a clean burning candle and I would describe the Aether candle as ‘cosy’ in a jar.
I would definitely recommend that people check out Essence + Alchemy.

The Aether Candle has an uplifting and energising essential oil blend of peppermint, rosemary, lemon, sage and juniper, which will help refresh and cleanse the air.  The Aether essential oil blend has been charged under the light of the full moon to harness it’s lunar power and infuse the oil with positive energy.

– taken from the Essence + Alchemy website


I had a quick chat with Essence + Alchemy founder Lesley.

What led you to start Essence + Alchemy as a business?

The beginning of Essence + Alchemy and candle making was a happy distraction from house renovation and once I got started in candle making, I just couldn’t stop. I was already working for myself as an environmental consultant so a jump into self employment wasn’t the motivation, I was obsessed with making the most environmentally friendly and natural candle that I could make. It was more like an obsessive hobby that eventually took over my day job.

What do you find most enjoyable and the most stressful part of running your own business?

The most enjoyable part has to be the making, I love working with essential oils and learning about their properties and creating new scents. The most stressful part is trying to keep on top of everything else like admin, accounting, emails, marketing, photography and sourcing raw materials, I currently work alone so I have to wear a lot of different hats.

Of all your products, which is your favourite and why?

That is always a difficult question because my favourites change depending on my mood. I’m a huge lavender fan so the Unwind candle and mist will always be firm favourites but Tranquility keeps me super calm and is a good go to during stressful times. It’s also one of my favourite scents.

You make it clear on your website that ethically sourced ingredients and your products are vegan/cruelty free. It’s always refreshing to hear for me personally, why is this so important to you?

It is important to me. I don’t believe that anything needs to be made at the exploitation of people, animals or the environment. I made this my mission when I started developing Essence + Alchemy as a brand. When I first began in candle making I started with beeswax, knowing that it was locally sourced and sustainable but then when I learned more about it, I realised that it isn’t vegan friendly or cruelty free. I quickly moved to rapeseed wax which is manufactured in the UK from plants grown in the UK and the EU so it doesn’t have the carbon footprint of other waxes like imported soy and coconut. To be honest, sourcing ethically and sustainably hasn’t been an easy journey, it’s been very long and hugely time consuming but it’s definitely worth every minute when I know that what I’m producing isn’t causing harm to anyone or the environment.

What are your plans for 2018?

Without giving too much away, I’m expanding the E+A range to include Air and Earth products, so watch this space!

You can check out the whole range of goodies Essence + Alchemy provide here on their website.

Moxie McMurder
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